Framing Introduction
Some truths don’t arrive all at once. They unfold — first as a feeling that tightens in your chest, then as a thought that won’t stop circling, and finally as a pattern you can’t unsee. And often, by the time we’re ready to name it, we’ve lived inside it for years.
This series was born from one of those truths: the tension between what is and what we still ache for in the people we love. It’s a paradox that lives at the heart of so many relationships — the urge to shape and the desire to accept, the hunger for growth and the need for peace, the difference between holding someone accountable and holding them close.
I wanted to explore that tension from two vantage points.
The first, “The Ache Between What Is and What You Want,” is written from the inside — raw, unresolved, journal-like. It’s what the ache feels like before you’ve found language for it. The second, “The Shape of What I Expect,” steps back to trace the deeper roots of that ache — how childhood conditioning, inherited standards, and love’s sharp edges can blur together in adulthood.
Together, they offer two ways into the same story: one to help you feel seen in the mess, and one to help you see the mess more clearly.
Read one. Read both. Read them in whatever order you need. My hope is that somewhere between them, you’ll find language for your own ache — and maybe, the beginnings of what it’s trying to teach you.
Explore the Essays
1. The Ache Between What Is and What You Want
Journal Series: A letter written from inside the moment — unfiltered, unresolved, deeply human. A mirror for anyone who’s ever felt the ache of unmet expectations.
2. The Shape of What I Expect
Longform Essay: A deeper dive into how inherited standards shape our relationships, and how to hold the desire for “better” without turning it into control.
Author’s Note
This series is part of an ongoing experiment in perspective — two ways of approaching the same truth: one that helps you feel it, and one that helps you understand it. Future “Seen vs. Shown” installments will follow this same format, exploring different corners of the human experience from both sides of the ache.